This line was a caption that my friend Kelsey had placed on a picture of herself, looking as confident as ever, in a bathing suit. Why can't we all be like this?
You see Kelsey and I have always had something in common in our group of friends. Firstly we are both bookworms and have the same general taste in music, secondly we have always been the ones with the boobs and the curves. All of our friends are skinny minnies and that's great because they are all beautiful just as they are. Same with Kelsey and I. We are all completely different.
Kendra is the strongest Christian and she has the most beautifully colored skin that I've ever seen, and her lupus can't compete with that.
Ciara has probably got the best body of all of my friends and the strongest sense of who she is,and her anemia can't do anything about that.
Lorin is extremely athletic and fit,and heck no she didn't let a staph infection or any other injury or problem(like moving to a whole new town) in her life get in the way of that.
Jada with her strikingly gorgeous face, is one tough little cookie and has a heart and soul like I've never seen before. Does she let any problems that she comes upon stop her? Pshh yeah right (and she knows which ones I'm talking about but I'm sure she wouldn't want them posted on my blog).
Kelsey has a mane of hair that would make Fabio cry, and she has always been one of the strongest, most confident people I know, despite losing her father at a young age.
Which only leaves me. My life is cookie cutter easy compared to these girls. And I have no right to be upset because I may be a little lets say "fluffier" than they are. Confidence is key and I cant speak for Kelsey, but I know that being around these girls in my bathing suit, is a little nerve racking for me. Of course I know they're not judging me(they usually just talk about how my boobs are taking over the world) but I know that other people around us are. Now I very rarely care what other people think about me and usually as long as they don't voice it, it's completely indifferent to me. However, when I come home from my senior pool party/picnic to see that one of my classmates has posted as their Facebook status "bikinis aren't for everyone"...yeah, that put a little ouch on my fluff. Now as to whether or not that statement was directed towards me didn't matter. It dawned on me at that point that, that's probably what everyone had been thinking all day seeing me in my bathing suit. Of course it upset me for a little while. For about a half hour I made plans in my head on how I was going to fix this. I was immediately going to order P90X the next time that infomercial rolled around. I wasn't going to eat anything that wasn't green, or drink anything that wasn't clear. And all of my bikinis were going in the trash until I was at least thirty pounds lighter.
But then I realized....wait a second... I DON'T CARE!!!! What an amazing revelation!!!! I am happy, I am healthy (enough), and since when did I care what the rest of the world had to say about me? I mean seriously folks do you really think I would act the way I act, dress the way I do and write the things I write if I was afraid what other people might think of me? Ha. I laugh at that inconceivable nonsense. As long as it does not hurt my testimony as a Christian, or put me in life threatening danger, I will most likely do, or say whatever is on my noggin.
Well after I realized how much I didn't care, I was angry. How must this make other girls feel who wore bikinis that day? Or ever for that matter? Why did people always have to make crude comments about something that frankly, didn't concern them in the least? Now whether the poster of this comment meant for it to be as hurtful and rude as it was, was irrelevant. It was, and I don't think anyone realizes how hurtful their comments are until it is brought to their attention. Whether it be on size, or race, or sex, or religion, or just someone's outfit choice, any smart remark goes deeper than you think. Now I'm not going to be so naive as to say that "after this no one will ever make a rude remark again!" but I will ask you to think twice before doing so. And if for some unfortunate reason you are on the other side of this nasty exchange, turn the other cheek, smile and say "God made me this way, and He DOESN'T make mistakes. Have a nice day :)". Then strut your sexy butt in the other direction because trust me, you do not need people like that in your life.
And just a side note, does anyone want to tell me why the Lord gives me these things at 2 o'clock in the morning?!?! I have to get up at 7 tomorrow people!! Ah I suppose I will just pray for an earlier revelation the next time around.
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