My mind races 95% percent of the day. Not of things that I have to do, or things I should be doing. No, my mind invents musicals and plays and scenarios for most of the day. Yes I am justifiably crazy but it's the only way I know how to think. I can't help but think of life as a movie or a play just waiting for the climax to enter. I am extremely disappointed that successful points in my life aren't filled with Eye of the Tiger, that happy points in my life aren't followed by Dancin' in the Moonlight, and points in which I feel extremely ticked off and feel the need for a slow motion walk, fail to be implicated by Bad to the Bone. I could go on for days but I'll spare you. I couldn't tell you how many times I've put my Killers playlist on my iPod on repeat and invented and re-invented a musical for it each time.
Inspiration is completely necessary in my life, without it it's impossible for me to think straight. I just finished the first season of Glee, and while it further convinced me that my theatre career will be short lived because of my lack of a singing voice, it also caused my brain to go into musical overdrive. I sincerely have to resist the urge to break into song at multiple points throughout the day. Granted if I am alone or with someone who simply does not care, I will break into random song anyway (even though my singing voice lacks much to be desired).
That is why I have to write all of my thoughts down in this blog. Because one day I might actually forget all of my inspiration, and motivation, and then what? Work at Tops & Bottoms for the rest of my life? Oh I think not. I will be successful in something I love to do. Whether that be theatre or directing or just discovering another path that entices me, I will Not sell shoes for the rest of my life. Let that be known.
Thank you for your time. I know this hasn't been a traditional first blog, but it's what I had on my mind, heretofore, it is what you receive.
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